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(no subject) [Dec. 13th, 2004|02:58 pm]
Allan J
Think I did fairly well on my US History final... tomorrow's government and economics. Ulp..
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(no subject) [Dec. 13th, 2004|02:03 am]
Allan J
[Current Mood |optimisticoptimistic]

Friday- went to the mall with dorothy and allison. got my haircut, had a blast. We went to toys r us and played Donkey Konga. Dorothy has an unhealthy addiction to that game :D Then, got back to campus, hung out with duncan and a bunch of random drunk people upstairs in Jen and Astra's room. Some people who I've been hanging out with a bit lately- seems like they're the only ones still up in the evening, so I thought I'd give it a shot. After that evening, i really can't take it anymore. Drunk people- from what i've seen, are just wasting their time. And I've been around enough drunkards and stoners in the last year to see that nothing good comes from it. Thankfully, i've realized this.

anyway, friday night after hanging out with the drunks, I felt kind of depressed. It feels like everyone around on campus at night is either asleep or drunk. What happened to the people who just want to hang out, have fun, and do shit like play video games? You know, normal people. And i'm not talking about people who don't drink just because 'Jesus tells them not to' and crap like that. Is everyone except me really complicated? I mean seriously.

So i was feeling, despite my nature, rather depressed at the time. Not good. Saturday I did NOTHING. I was sick. didn't study, just watched some movies and barely ate. Slept a lot. It was sad.

today I wake up, I'm feeling better. Things reached their pinnacle when I hung out with mom for awhile. We really can relate to eachother, and we're great at dealing with eachother's problems. I'm insanely thankful for what I have with her, really... She helped me feel really, really good about myself again. Which is the way it should be, you know?

I really think that the keys to life are optimism and humor. Find good in everything, and you're halfway there. Find humor in everything, and you're golden. Honestly. I think these concepts are insanely simple, yet... so precious few people understand it, or ever will.

People are too caught up in 'being stressed' and worried about things. It's like people think they have some sort of obligation to be constantly bothered by something.

Anyway, exam at 8:00 AM.. today. heh. Better get some sleep. Continuity is power- see you tomorrow.
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(no subject) [Dec. 7th, 2004|07:17 pm]
Allan J
Yay, we finally got snow.
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Random Philosophy [Dec. 1st, 2004|03:51 pm]
Allan J
I'm so sick of the general mindset that plagues 90% of the people in my agegroup. The whole angsty attitude, constantly complaining about your life and preaching atheism and acting like you've, got the universe figured out. This whole perpetual state of depression and the emo/goth 'culture', if you can even call it that. For God's sake, grow up. It's sickening to know that there's people who've actually graduated high school with this sort of attitude. These people are wasting their lives. I mean, we've got guys living in the united states, in college, with girlfriends, who still find it necessary to write angsty poems about depression and hate. What the hell else do you want? Stop being a baby and appreciate your life, before something happens that you should really be depressed about. Now, to make it clear, there ARE plenty of my peers that are worth knowing.

Here's the way of things. I believe there is some grand order or scheme of things. There is a Creator, or maybe the Universe itself has some kind of intelligence and ability to alter things. Fate definitely exists. There is far too many 'coincidences' and 'chances' occuring every day for everything to just be random.
The mere FACT that we exist, here and now, proves that there IS something going on beyond our own understanding. To claim that there is nothing beyond what you see is just arrogant.

However, most organized religions annoy me just as much as most atheists. It's wrong, regardless of what your belief is, to tout it around and act like you know what's best. I don't care if you're a Christian, Muslim or atheist, nor do I think it matters too much which one of you turns out to be correct. If it happens that hardcore conservative Christians turn out to be right, and I go to hell for not worshipping, fine, so be it. That will be my fate, I'll accept it without any anger. But the point is, stop trying to convince others that your view is right- both sides. It doesn't matter. Personally, I'm a lot more optimistic in the way of things. I believe that, if there is an afterlife (which also doesn't matter too much to me), then everyone has their own chance at achieving it. Regardless of your faith. It's a lot more of a personal thing, as opposed to 'read a book, and follow these steps for salvation'.

However, the issue of an afterlife is, like I said, rather pointless to me. if there is one, fine and dandy. But I'm more than happy enough with my life here and now, I'm not going to spend my time worrying about what happens after I die.
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Begin the Holiday Season [Dec. 1st, 2004|12:32 am]
Allan J
So it's December 1st already. As if things weren't going well enough already. My level of excitement at this holiday season is unnatrually high, though. I've already downloaded a bunch of Christmas music and the like. It just needs to snow, as that is the quintessential part of the holiday season. hopefully tomorrow.

I suppose this would be a good time to introduce this new Livejournal. I was getting sick of the old one- the name, the layout, the old posts... So I decided to start again, naming my new humble abode after the new Metal Gear, in Snake Eater. I'm hoping that I'll feel more comfortable here, and post only when I've got something interesting and worth reading. So.. onward and upward.
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(no subject) [Nov. 30th, 2004|01:52 pm]
Allan J
Holy crap, my roommate is still asleep.
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Things to do before I die. Hopefully. [Nov. 29th, 2004|04:06 pm]
Allan J
1. Write a book.
2. Get married
3. have multiple children
4. Visit Europe
5. visit Greece- and the place where my great-grandmother was born
6. Graduate college
7. get my license. Heh.
8. visit all 48 continental states
9. Own my grandfather’s old camp, or have a camp somewhere in Maine.
10. Create a full ‘RPG Maker 2000’ project and release it online
11. Meet Shannon Hurst
12. Go fishing and/or hunting with my father
13. Own lots of dogs
14. At least try and see what some facial hair would look like (Done)
15. Earn the respect and friendship of every member of my extended family
16. Go on a long trip/vacation with my closest friends
17. Learn to play the piano much better
18. Experience Zero Gravity
19. Have a pet ferret. Or a monkey
20. Own a nice house.
21. Run for Congress.
22. Teach- even if it’s not my job, at least see what it’s like
23. Become ‘friends’ with at least one of my old high school teachers.
24. Do something large to benefit someone else (i.e.: volunteer overseas, donate lots of money to charity, adopt)
25. Visit Washington DC again
26. Go to Disneyworld again
27. visit NYC
28. visit Las Vegas
29. Paint something
30. visit Paris
31. Become the user with the highest karma on GameFAQS.com
32. Climb one of those high, snowy mountains
33. Scuba dive.
34. Visit Egypt- see the pyramids
35. Be something in a movie
36. learn guitar
37. Grow a garden
38. white water raft
39. See someone legendary (i.e.: Rolling Stones) in concert
40. Walk on Old Orchard Beach at night with the girl of my life
41. Set foot on each of the continents
42. Become as physically fit as I can
43. Own a large telescope
44. Meet a president
45. Eat sushi
46. Ride the ‘Orient Express’
47. visit Jerusalem
48. visit Mecca
49. visit a Buddhist temple
50. Become at least a semi-regular contributor to a newspaper
51. Write a movie script
52. Take up photography as a hobby
53. Become an expert on computers (programming, web design)
54. Watch all the famous movies
55. See the launch of a space-shuttle
56. Partake in some form of local government
57. spend some time in Alaska
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